girls do love a fast car!

another great date with peter. yes, it helps that he has a hot car, and i feel even hotter in it. but i cant help but feel that maybe i like his car more then him. he is ever so sweet but ever so cocky too. and i know its a little shallow of me,.. but theres a height issue. he happens to be a little shorter.. which is ok.. but i tend to like them taller then even when im in heels! but never the less maybe i should give him a shot.

..i heard a song.. that if you had a sound track for all the things that happened in your life. this song would have to be in it. i wanted to cry, and i think i would have if not being in a room with two other people. i pictured myself crying in a corner with no one coming to find m e. which only made my sadder and fell more alone. of all the feelings in the world i think lonely is the worse.

Imogen Heap
Hide And Seek lyrics

Where are we?
What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just began to form crop circles in the carpet, Sinking... Feeling...
Spin me 'round again and rub my eyes;
This can't be happening.
When busy streets a mess with people
Would stop to hold their heads heavy

Hide and Seek
Trains and sewing machines
All those years;
They were here first.

Oily marks appear on walls
Where pleasure moments hung before
The takeover, the sweeping insensitivity of this still life

Hide and Seek
Trains and sewing machines (Oh, you won't catch me around here)
Blood and tears (huh) they were here first.

Mm what you say
Oh that you only meant well, well of course you did
Mm what you say
Mm that it's all for the best, of course it is
Mm what you say
Hmm that IT'S JUST-a-what we need, you decided this (we, you)
Mm what you say
Hmm what did she say?

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs (paper word cut outs)
Speak no feeling no I don't believe you (I don't buy it)
You don't care a bit you don't care a bit

Ransom notes keep falling out your mouth (Hide and Seek)
Mid-sweet talk, newspaper word cut outs
Speak no feeling no I don't believe you (Hide and Seek)
You don't care a bit you don't care a bit

You don't care a bit (Hide and Seek)
You don't care a bit, no
You don't care a bit
Mm, no, you don't care a bit
You don't care a bit
You don't care a bit

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i think i'll be ok

Keven likes Brianne and i actually think i'm ok with it. I mean sure I was mad at first.. wondering why it couldn't have been me. how i wished when i saw him he would just say i miss you. but now i look at him and do not see the boy i once liked sooo much. he is just a boy i once fell for. I sometimes wonder if he ever did find out about alan but i try not to think of it.


i'm lonely.... and i hate to say that but it's true. maybe Evans mind is right, I do not know if I could be in a relation with someone with out the relationship part. Sure plain no-stings sex is awesome but how much of it can you take without getting to attached with the other person. no, he has not actually said this. but i can see it in his eyes. and that for once this is the only time i can read his mind. All the same i can not help but want him, and go back to eating morning chocolate chip pancakes!