....needs work

conundrum
11-06-08
we take two paths
yet see each other
never meant to be

yet soul mates we are
in this crazy world
of love, lust and insanity

you fool, you fool, you fool
take me in your arms
love me, love me, love me

one step forwards
two steps back
towards the future we never had

freak smiles
your worthless effort
comes to this point of end

with what remains is up to you
because i was always here
waiting and still waiting for you,
to make your final move
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more poems will be added

early in the game to be dumping the ball!

Love, do you say it just to say it or do you mean it for what it truly is.

and if you do say it.. do you say it to early.. to late.. or never at all.


Things with the new boy toy have been good.. great even. givin that Corey is into drugs, not going to high school, has zero goals, and zero expectation of entering college if and any at all in his life time... yet i find myself having those fuzzy feelings you get when you first meet someone new....
at the same time when i should only be thinking of him.. the name Evan enters my brain and can not shake him. i still do not know if im in love with him or the image of him, but what i do know is the feeling that might be love is there.. and im tried of waiting for him.

the reason i bring up love is.. corey dropped the "L" bomb!!!! ... we have been dating now for .. 3 weeks. he first said it to me on the phone when i was visiting FERANDO ( a friend i met through playin halo four years ago.. a story i will deff get into later!!! ) anyway i didn't know what to say so i just said "ok bye!" well when i got home he said it again. i feel bad not saying it but i can not say it to someone i do not feel it for. its weird because i just have a hard time with someone saying "i love you" so early on in a relationship. can they mean it....?