i wish life was like a movie sometimes. where everything always works out by the end of the tale. even though movies may show the beautiful one side of the story ... thats all it ever does..thats the one beauty of Hollywood. but after the story ends who will ever know if in fact there is a happy ending after all. Now the question that may be asked at this point is why do i think this.
The latest news...
Kevin came back home this weekend. how do i know this. not by him of course. No. by his facebook. How. his own stupidity to leave a message quoting "home for spring break" end quote. has he told me he has in fact come home. No, he hasn't. i mean does he really think i am that stupid. how can someone act one way and then another so fast. so, no i will not be texting you. and yet i know i probably will. which is the one of many things i hate about myself.
No, i do not want a relationship. not with Kevin. not with anyone. But then what is this longing for tenderness. a kiss, a hug, a touch on the shoulder. More. as human, i must face this fact, and deal with it alone.
or Not.
theres always Alan. Kevin best and longest friend. which i unfortunately had a little.. well a lot of time together last week. if you know what i mean. which to my knowledge, No Kevin does not know. why. because Alan said he would not tell him. which really. who can trust boys. even with this fact, Kevin and i were never together. in fact he did not want to be together. therefore should not be upset.
A TEXT
it is him.
quote " heyy wat u up 2" end quote
what a asshole. he has been here four days and now texts me. i will not text back.
1 hour and half later...
i texted him back.
my text to him quote "ooh.. hey hows tricks?"
he didn't text back.
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