So, here i am. A now college graduate, twenty three going on twenty four years old and job less. well not work less, i don't count my shitty part time job at shop rite or my other pointless job at outback steak house a real job. the worst part about it...i still am in the lost zone. you know that zone where you take a good hard look at yourself and say, "well self ...what are you good at? what makes you happy?" truth is I'm not that great at anything and i haven't done anything yet that (can make me money) makes me happy. Well i guess ill just have to do what everyone else does when you have no idea what to do with their life. Become a COP or join the army, and please i can barely run a mile under fourteen minutes..so that leaves cop. awesome.... damn i need a mentor. application now being accepted. if only Jillian Michael's would become my mentor at least then she would yell in my face, kick my ass and make my insides hurt..I would still be somewhat of lame depressing human being but at least i would have a slamming body in the end.
love...
idk. yes after three and a half years im still with kevin. who has become this lame boyfriend who doesnt even put his arm around me at the bar.. come on its only been three years and half that time we were a distance relationship because of school. the romance is dead and i dont know how to get it back or that it ever will.
soo this leaves breaking up or stay together. so what happens if we break up. i have seen the guys out there in fact the one guy i just recently fell head over heels for is a total complete asshole. I just found out that he has a girlfriend which is fine because i have kevin so i cant be all upset about that but... and heres the but... the girlfriend works with him but is in the next department to mine. and whenever she is around he never talks or flirts with me and the second she goes home for the day hes all over me. does he think im stupid. he probably doesnt even know i know about his girlfriend. even though he gave me such shit when i told him about kevin. And he seemed like such a nice guy in the beginning... but i guess they always do.
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